Reader,
I’m sitting at the airport (I love working in airports), reflecting on what I want to share with you all because, as always, there’s so much on my heart. Over the past season, I’ve learned something important about myself: I thrive in places of change. I’m always refining the work I do, finding new ways to support creatives, and, most importantly, honouring who I am and who I’m becoming.
Just the other day, I felt this deep, unexpected wave of grief. At first, I wasn’t sure what it was or where it came from, but I could feel it down in my bones. When thoughts, ideas, or feelings show up, I try my best to at least acknowledge them. Sometimes I have to push them away to look at in more detail later, other times it feels urgent to check in right then and there. I get to decide.
I realized that wave of grief was grief for the younger version of me, the girl who didn’t grow up knowing her worth or how to value her creativity. No one pushed me to be ambitious or become a self-starter; in fact, no one pushed me to do ... anything.
I knew I wanted more for myself. It wasn't just a desire; it was a necessity. I've had to rebuild my brain—more on that soon in an upcoming email! Growing up the way I did, it always felt like I was starting twenty steps behind. So much of my time and energy has been spent playing catch-up. Carving out a path that I felt I deserved hasn't been easy. How could I dare to prioritize my heart, my energy, my needs? Can I truly create the projects I envision? At times, I've found myself questioning the very power structures I aspire to navigate. My perspective has always been unconventional.
But I’ve spent a lot of time writing from this young girl's perspective, and now, I feel ready to let her rest a bit. I’m tucking her away somewhere safe so that I can continue to grow and fully show up for the people who trust me with their work and their hearts.
Recently, and although I already consider myself a deep listener, I’ve become an even more intentional and mindful listener. (I even took a session on this in DC last weekend!) I show up for my clients and potential clients with my ears wide open, listening for the things others might overlook. I notice details, point them out, and share observations because, whether we’re discussing your manuscript or just talking through a challenge, that one small noticing could change the entire shape of your creative journey. You just never know.
With all that said, I’ve been working on two new offerings at BSC, and I hope you’ll take a look. These offerings are the result of years of experience, deep conversations with fellow creatives and industry professionals, and the heart of a little girl who wanted more—for herself and for everyone she would one day meet.
Reflective Question: What does aligned change look like for you?
Sending love,
Chelene
Chelene
